I LOVE MYSELF
I LOVE MYSELF
I came to the realization today that regardless of the bumps of life. I am still alive and well. Today is the first time that I said to myself " I Love You"
Not being loved for being different, made my life a little uncomfortable to put it lightly.
I am...I am different I don't fit in the " usual way" as others. I am a free spirit don't cage me on the " usual" and today I discovered the root of my being.
I am an intuitive, I don't like the word psychic, but I can't find another that " fits my soul" to present myself to you. I have been a ..how can I describe this? A little different?
I
knew as a child when something "happened" but nobody else did until a couple of days later.
I knew as a child when someone
was going to die, and I knew as a child to curse someone because they
hurt my mother...It was just a wish..it was only once...sorry ( not sorry).
Along the way, I lost what was hidden inside me. I lost my way of
living. I hid my feelings and desires to be like others to keep my
family together and everybody happy and in doing so..my inner-self was
killed as I was punished many times for reading any book that didn't fit
the "taste" of my husband.
Controlled him on what I was reading, and I was sent many times to the bathroom to be locked in by him to read the book in there.
Go figure.
I
thought I lost who I am, but today I have discovered why I don't
fit with the rest, carrying within me two failed marriages but blessed
with those life experiences and three daughters and three grandchildren.
Today
I was looking for something, I can't read tarot cards I tried and tried
and tried. Nothing. Same as Astrology... but I fit well on Mayan
Astrology...so..something it's not clicking here...
I am good with holistic healing, yes, I love crystals and the sound of
the Tibetan bowls when I play them ( and I make my one-of-a-kind tone
frequencies that are healing as well) as I go with each client...I also
sing intuitively guided, healing songs...who knows in what language?
Someone told me he heard the Mayan and Sioux languages so, but, I can't
read tarot. I " don't get it". I tried and tried. nothing. I can read
Egyptian oracles intuitively but not tarot, The curious child within me
today was looking for more...Dang!..I found the Sephirot cards.
Love
at first sight. ! Those are the ones I want, those are the ones my
heart jumped and said: buy them!!! Hold on brother, we need the
money...bummer...I realize and acknowledge today that I am different,
and that I love " ancient" tools of learning to help others.
I
love my spiritual name "Aglaḯa" which is Greek,( suggested by my
Spiritual Guides) for this:" Intuitive Blogger" Intuitive Speaker "
space, and I have another one for "tarot" readings and spiritual
guidance. ( I got that one in a dream.).
I
love all things that go far to Egypt and Greece and beyond, let's leave
the Roman Empire on the side...not a good life there.
I wasn't rich, I
was a woman walking on the streets with a kind of bag of potatoes on my
body as a dress, and well I was killed by Roman soldiers, I saw myself
(meaning I had a vision, of my body (avoiding details here).
Also,
I was a priestess in Greece where we were dressed up in white tunics
and there were white columns around, I met a woman once who told me that
I was with her at those times and we connected in this lifetime.
Well,
now I am here. my calling is to do all differently, that's why I don't
fit into the " regular" way of living like others.
That
doesn't mean that I don't wish to have a " regular" life with someone,
family, and friends, to have a get-together and laugh, laugh a lot.
I am happy today that I found and love myself.
💓
Aglaḯa
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